Nathan Mader | EILMER OF MALMESBURY

 

EILMER OF MALMESBURY

He had by some means, I scarcely know what, fastened wings to his hands and feet so that,
mistaking fable for truth, he might fly like Daedalus, and, collecting the breeze upon the
summit of a tower, flew for more than a furlong.
—William of Malmsebury

The votive candles flicker but do not go out
as I sew the fabric of the devout to a skeleton
of pine I’ve hewn from out of service pews, every
thread a tether between design and air, prayer
and machine. For the foreseeable future, I’ve
turned from my star maps that I might craft
a form of ascension I can strap to my back, wings
taut as a crucifix bound in a Book of Hours.
But even the angels have their momento mori,
and the tower’s stones are woven into the same
weightless dream. How long I’ve looked to the skies
for a sign of myself in You and felt You in
the nothing that is everything there. Why do I
hesitate to touch your face? The Brothers grow restless,
suspecting I’m no longer Daedalus, but Penelope
undoing the night’s loom work. They don’t see
the guide wires disconnecting from my thought’s
black box—there’s something faithless in this leap.

 

Author’s Bio

NATHAN MADER lives in Regina, Saskatchewan. His poems have appeared in Grain and The Fiddlehead, and he was a finalist for the 2013 Walrus Poetry Prize.