Emilie Lafleur | DISTANCE (Finalist, Vallum Award for Poetry 2022)

DISTANCE

To say they distanced ……………………………….to say it wasn’t about spit

What began as a statement of rot……………….after reading a book about rot

Emerge this is not yet thinking………………….And when… would become: when

reception of pictures………………………………..And when and so on

I didn’t expect any stunning originality

The feeling of having done something terrible like no god

When at the reception… of sense-impressions,…………pictures

Emerge this is not yet thinking ………………………..still in bodies it wasn’t about spit

You can afford to be sentimental because I can’t do anything to you

A fitness kick and biotin……I still can’t do anything to you

And the joke about perception lands wrong and when it does…..and so on

Emerging this awareness of fluid but you can be sentimental

Having found peace inside the house with the printed bricks, just not mine

When reception / of pictures
………….and when… interception of pictures

I have done something terrible something like no god

Something like the spray of the drawings……………………….then we begin to know something

Then we really begin to know something

Emerge this is not yet true

No god between us we all used to get so close…………………on several occasions

and you would love me driving and you would love me receiving

Emerge this is not yet thinking but it’s so simple……………………..my body is acted upon by some surface

What is communicable now? What more is communicable?

To say it was about spit is to say something terrible and unlike me

And when… would become: when reception……………of pictures

And when… would become:……………………….too complicated

I can’t do anything to you but leave


Emilie Lafleur is a writer living in Montreal. Her work has been featured in Peach Magazine, The Void, and Metatron Ömëgä, among others, and is forthcoming from Collusion Press. She is currently working on a project about apocalypses